I assume you are reading this because in some way you want to transform yourself. That’s great news because I do too! I’m not sitting here as an accomplished transformation specialist. No way! I’m just like you and trying to figure out how to be the person I know I truly am inside. Let me ask you something. Who are you? No really, who are you? I asked myself this question earlier and what a hard one it is to answer.
I can start with the obvious…I’m Hazel, but who is Hazel? She’s a bright, charming, successful Software Consultant who owns her own home and has a dog (Whitaker) and two horses (Ira and Callaway). She’s also a divorcee and in a tragically “it’s complicated” situation with the next guy. She has debt and stress and she let’s it eat her on the inside. She self medicates with food instead of admitting she is very sad. Sad because her life didn’t turn out the way she wanted it to and also guilty because she has a great life and a lot to be thankful for!
Hazel is this person: confident and put together.
But she is also this person: sad and lonely.
Anyway, I’m not here to whine about how my life sucks because compared to a Syrian refugee I have nothing to complain about. What I am here to do is talk about my feelings instead of eating them, try to be a positive role model in the war on the waistline, and hopefully create a community of like-minded individuals who want to support each other through the same.
Today is December 14, 2015 and today is the day I take my life back. Some people might think, why wouldn’t you start on January 1? Well, let me tell you. I read a study somewhere sometime (that counts as a citation right?) that said people who started their transformations right away were far more likely to succeed than those who waited to start on a specific day in the future. So why not now? If you really want to change, you’ll start right now. I’m not kitten, just start right meow.
So how does a type A personality like myself get out of a funk? A goal. That’s all I need. A real goal. Something I have always wanted to do, but held myself back from doing. The question is how big do you go with the goal? It has to be achievable, but it also has to be something that isn’t a given. I will finalize this goal on January 1 but I have to really think about what I am going to commit myself to. In any respect, it will be big. It will require dedication and commitment. It will involve looking amazing and in the process finding myself. Whatever the end goal is, I will lose 50 lbs over the next year and I will run a PR in a 15 km race as well as a half marathon. At the end of it all, I need some big splashy way to celebrate and I’m just not sure what that is yet. That’s the real goal.
Since there’s no time like the present, I went to the gym this morning and did an upper body workout.
5 Sets of 10 Reps:
Chest Press, Shoulder Press, Bentover barbell row, Dips, Bicep Curl
My meals were pretty good:
Meal 1 – Cantaloupe, egg muffins (will post the recipe for these one day)
Meal 2 – Protein Shake – tried the french vanilla Vega protein + greens mixed with berries and that sh*t is funky. I do NOT like it. I will be spending the next several weeks figuring out how to make it more palatable.
Meal 3 – Chicken Enchiladas loosely interpreted from Bill Phillips’ Eating For Life. (Will also post the recipe for this one day).
Meal 4 – Plain baked potato and a cheese String
Meal 5 – Fish Tacos and avocado
Meal 6 – Greek yogurt
I wasn’t very good about taking pictures of my meals today but I did manage to snap one of “the funk”.
If you have been thinking about making some changes in your life to make you feel better about yourself. Join me now! Leave a comment and say hi. Or just tell me to stop whining about my life! It’s all good! Join me though…I need some partners in crime.